One year down, who knows how many more

Most of you guys probably didnt know, or probably dont care, but its August 22, 2013 today. That date probably doesnt have a big significance to you, but it does to me. On August 22, 2012 I went to Duke and was officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. It has been a year. So many things have changed in that year, some for the better and some for the worse. Looking back on my blogs from that day/week/year I am realizing that I definitely have changed. Don't get me wrong, I still feel the same about the things I blogged about.  But, I don't exactly know how to explain it. I am FEELING a little better psychically. a LITTLE. But the more that I cant do things or people make jokes, the sadder I get. I am trying so hard to be confident and happy all the time but its hard. Someone told me recently that they loved the way that I brightened up any room I was in, that there was something about me, something about my confidence, that shined bright and that I was a delight to be around. I will always remember that. My goal is to not let my Fibro show, I want to be a delight to be around, not a inconvenience. I dont want my sadness to effect anyone, I want to be that shining light of confidence that causes people to be happy. I never want anyone to feel the sadness that I have felt, and still feel sometimes.